"Life, liberty and the pursuit of sanity."
It’s been six months since my last appearance here and truthfully, I didn’t think I’d ever get the urge to come back and continue to tell my story. October 2020 felt like the end to a burden that I had been facing for a long time. The physicality of anxiety plagued me for longer than... Continue Reading →
I have been MIA for most of 2020. Words on the year just felt like it didn't cut it. Expressing myself became impossible but I have finally hit the point where I'm able to talk about it, able to embrace myself and my world despite how uncomfortable it can be. I have been working from... Continue Reading →
I do a lot of gushing. I know, I do because when it comes to my wife, it feels physically impossible not to. I’ve seen the best and worst of times with her and I can fire off about a million reasons why I love her. However, that’s not the point of my bringing up... Continue Reading →
I am over the moon that this challenge has made its way back to the blogosphere. I participated since 2015 and have made every effort not to miss a year. As someone who suffers from mental health issues, it’s very easy to spiral into a world of negativity where you can only see the terrible... Continue Reading →
I have spent way too many years focused on what I /should/ be doing with goals I want to accomplish and have found myself falling short every time. I am my own worst enemy and my critique of myself isn’t always warranted. While I’m not and will never excuse laziness of any kind, I want... Continue Reading →
It’s more common to look forward around this time of year. What didn’t you accomplish in the current year? Will you accomplish it in the upcoming year? How can you be better? How can you change? All of these are valid questions to ask. Personal growth is something that should be life long, but what... Continue Reading →
All too often as a resident of the Big Apple, I find myself jaded by a work schedule, the inconveniently placed tourists needing to get out of my way, and the general foot traffic of city dwellers. It can become all too consuming to work and want to get the hell home. I’ve written about... Continue Reading →
For me, our wedding day was the gratification I wanted to feel for our relationship but also one of the most humbling experiences I’ve ever had. The stressful planning, for the most part, worked out the way I envisioned it. Tables were set the way I wanted them to be, my dress was stunning, my... Continue Reading →
Photo by Tirachard Kumtanom on Pexels.com I say this as I sit here 9 days into my marriage, a little bit disappointed. The original intent to document daily love letters to my beautiful bride for the next 365 days but my body had other plans. The day after our nuptials (more about those later) I... Continue Reading →
Photo by Anton Makarenko on Pexels.com Engagements are all too consuming. Sometimes in the greatest of ways as you ready yourself and your partner emotionally to embark on a lifetime together and other times you stare at your bank account and wonder how the hell you’re actually going to pull the whole thing off. Did... Continue Reading →
I wish I was in a better mood. I wish I had motivational things to report; like how to manage anxiety in 10 easy steps, or results from recovery. However, I am in the thick of what anxious people call a setback. While my anxiety hasn’t returned to full throttle that keeps me up at... Continue Reading →
The last three weeks have been nothing short of chaotic. I turned 30 as I went on and on about. 30 was good, 30 wasn’t as fossilizing as one would think then wedding planning kicked into high gear. We’re in the finals months of it all, and all of the little projects and ideas and... Continue Reading →
The schedule is shot to hell but here we are; the night before the whole reason for all of this to begin with. I am roughly two hours away from my third decade and I have to say I'm not feeling as overwhelmed as I thought I would have. Being bathed in the love of... Continue Reading →
30 days feels completely unattainable but I will not be stopped. This whole process began in vain to celebrate my three decades and essentially feel better about getting older. However, it turned into an actual challenge for me. An exercise to teach, prepare and hopefully further my writing. For those who read these prompts, I... Continue Reading →
This consecutive day thing is next to impossible. It doesn’t mean I won’t stop trying, it just means I’m exhausted from the thought of constantly letting this scheduling slip through my fingers. However, I’m back! I’m still surfing through the 300 Writing Prompt book in awe of the thought provoking questions it presents. Today’s prompt... Continue Reading →
I know I missed yesterday, boo on me but I’m back! The consecutive days is something I’d love to shoot for but I also know it may not always happen. With Fridays being my least busy day at work I’m likely going to queue up a few posts to last me into the weekend. Onto... Continue Reading →
This seems to be a reoccurring topic of conversation for my fiancée and I. She’s mostly fearless and I’m fearful of a lot. We’re an odd pairing when it comes to how we live out our lives but we somehow make it work. While she genuinely means well, her blunt opinions of me always stir... Continue Reading →
It has been a WEEK and it’s only Tuesday. Life is very busy, so my anxiety is a little bit peaked by that. I feel like I’m getting pulled all over the place and the balancing act isn’t my thing. However, I am still very lucky to have what have and be where I’m at.... Continue Reading →
I think this weekend proved to me that I have a little bit of re-adjusting my schedule to do. I was hoping to promise a 30 prompts for 30 days series, but I fell short. However, this won’t stop me, even if I need to carry over into the month of June I am determined... Continue Reading →
Over the course of my relationship with my fiance, she has gotten me countless tools for the betterment of my writing. She’s given me journals, fancy pens, not so fancy pens, and most recently a book of 300 writing prompts. Today’s selection comes from that book. Thank you, babe! The book comes with lines below... Continue Reading →
26. Fear: What scares you a little? What do you feel when scared? How do you react? Credit: https://thinkwritten.com/365-creative-writing-prompts/ May starts Mental Health Awareness month. Approximately 1 in 5 people in the US suffer from some sort of mental illness. It’s a stigma that needs to be erased by talking about it and fighting out... Continue Reading →
We are knocking on the door of the 5th month of 2019 and it happens to be my birthday month. I am a May baby; a proud Gemini, a spring lover (even if I think allergies are slowly creeping in), and so very into having a birthday. I know a lot of people don’t like... Continue Reading →
I have spent the last 20 years consumed by you. You filled my every thought, my every nerve ending, and most importantly my heart. You have given me a sense of safety being the screaming alarm that sounded when I didn’t want to do something or when something felt even the slightest bit out of... Continue Reading →
“The only way out is through.” That’s one of the many positive affirmations given to the reader in this book and it’s the one that stuck with me the most. Last year was probably one of the worst of my life professionally. I was in constant conflict with my managers, always having to look over my... Continue Reading →
Last week disappointed me greatly. I have been trying to stick to a weekly schedule for posting but my mind just went blank. My mood has been all over the place and my muse had nothing to give. However, I’m back this week to explain where my head is and hopefully give a little insight... Continue Reading →
St. Patrick’s Day was one of the many holidays that took the face of what tradition means to me. Every year, my mother’s family and ours would share the Americanized meal of corn beef and cabbage with soda bread, and our green “beer”. As a child, all of this felt so regular. It was just... Continue Reading →
By definition normal is conforming to a standard; the usual, typical or expected. Normal could also be defined to gage a state of condition. Normal by definition is pretty clear cut when it’s applied in the right way. However, normal in society starts to get these patchy gray areas of falsified perfection which can be... Continue Reading →
"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth on him should not perish, but have eternal life. ... For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. "- John 3:16... Continue Reading →
Mental Health is a slippery slope to navigate in general. But, when it comes to treatment it gets even trickier. No one case is the same so what works for somebody else may not necessarily work for you and guess what? That’s okay! There are many different positive ways to deal with mental health and... Continue Reading →
A large root to the self-esteem issues that I have, I've found is looking for validation in others instead of myself. I would seek it at home in my fiancée, in my mother, and in my employment. The need to be validated became almost an obsession for me. I have been a people pleaser since... Continue Reading →
In almost every way my fiancée and I were different when it came to how we’re mentally and emotionally built. I was upfront with emotions especially in regards to her, family and friends and she was reserved. I was eager to communicate to solve problems and find compromise and she tended to bottle her feelings... Continue Reading →
I’m pooped. This week has successfully kicked the living shit out of me and I’ve reached my usual posting days and I’ve drawn a huge blank. Working, living, and planning a wedding I knew would from time to time would not be conducive for a muse for writing but I don’t want to give up.... Continue Reading →
I began my full-time work life in August 2010. College didn’t work out for me so I took a job as a receptionist in an allergist’s office in Midtown, Manhattan. Younger me was excited for her first taste of real money, independence, and a new venture. After 15 years in school and living to impress my... Continue Reading →
Journaling has been an activity that has come and gone for me. Either I judge myself too hard with what I’m writing or I lose track of time and never actually dedicate myself. However, the act itself is a huge “mind-dump” for me allowing to vent in a constructive and private way. I attempted to... Continue Reading →
I almost missed this! Thank you to Dawn from Tales from the Motherland for the January 31st extension. The end of the year brought a ton of chaos for me. I was let go from my job of 4 years. It was both a blessing and a curse. A blessing for fresh perspective but a... Continue Reading →
My writing has been a never ending journey of stops and starts. Some months, I’m full of muse and ready to share my vision and myself with the world. Whereas other months, I am drowned in the voices of opinions, the crushing stress of navigating adult life, and general life happenings that make it feel... Continue Reading →
